To Overcome My Depression

I am realizing in this journey of mine, to overcome my depression, that I really do have a lot of great things in my life. I am trying to get up every morning and focus on and take note of these things. It amazes me how being depressed can make one blind to the truly good things in life. I have a wonderful wife that does her best to understand my disease. She is always there for me regardless of how bad I may be feeling. I think a good support system is absolutely crucial for those of us dealing with depression, and having someone who does their best to understand what you are going through is absolutely wonderful. She is my best friend and soul mate and I can't imagine going through life without her. God has truly blessed me with this amazing woman. Sometimes I feel so undeserving of her.

I also have awesome children and grandchildren. Even though I don't see them as much as I should, the times I do, always make me feel better. I need to focus on why I don't see them as much as I should. It's my fault really. I find it too easy to not have company, because most of the time I'd rather be alone. This is something I need to get past. I say this because I am discovering another great way to beat this depression is by being around the family and friends I love. Most of the time I have to force myself to do it, but almost every time, I feel so much better afterwards. Why is it so easy for me to just block everyone out? Why is it so easy for me to stay in my "cave" and avoid the real world? These are questions I need to answer moving forward.

I know this journey isn't going to be an easy one. It hasn't been for the last thirty years. However, I also know I am on the right track towards being somewhat normal again. I feel an excitement that I haven't felt in a long time. I feel hope because I see the things I am doing and reading about are already starting to make a difference in my depression. In a way, I'm starting to feel alive again.